I have been off work since last Friday. For those who don’t live in the UK this means I got a lovely 10 days off for the price of 4 days holiday from work because of the bank holidays. Aren’t I clever?
I’ve had a good week so far but today I suddenly felt as though my holiday had come to an end. This is not true. I still have the weekend off and won’t be back at work until Monday so why was I feeling so low? As I was contemplating my feelings I started thinking about the things that filled my week and asked myself if I achieved what I wanted out of this week off. Let’s recap and see…
I spent two days babysitting my 3 year old niece. Had an amazing time with her. She’s so lovely and smart and I love that she’s talking so much and most of it even makes sense! This is a great thing considering she’s learning two languages at the same time. I don’t get to see her often because I live quite far away from my immediate family so spending time in this part of the country means I try to see everybody if I can.
I also went horse racing with my boyfriend and a couple of friends. I have never been to the horse races even though this is quite a big thing where my boyfriend lives. Obviously, I placed some bets and asked lots of questions and most likely didn’t make any sense but I came home with more than I arrived with so that’s a win. I could also see that I could easily get sucked in the excitement of betting not knowing if I’ll win or lose so I think I shall stay safely away from the race course. My purse will thank me for it!
Yesterday was my boyfriend’s birthday so we went fishing with his dad. I love going fishing with them. Mostly because his dad is freakin’ hilarious and they don’t seem to be able to catch much fish so it leaves me to provide the entertainment by asking questions. Let’s just say there’s a lot of eye rolling. I’ve asked to be taught how to fish before but they don’t like it because I always catch at least one fish. I’m sure it’s beginners luck but it annoys the hell out of them! teehee
So that leaves me so far with 4 days I’ve had all to myself since my boyfriend was at work. When I planned this time off I was looking forward to some time to myself to enjoy some of the things I normally don’t do such as spending time in coffee shops drinking coffee and watching people and catching up with my reading (my tbr shelf is fairly long).
Since I embarked on this journey to write a book it was clear to me that this week would involve a lot of writing and researching. I was really looking forward to it but as with a lot of things in live sometimes the looking forward is the best part of something. I have written a fair bit but not as much as I wanted to.
Every time I write I feel alive, my characters come alive in my head and there’s such a rush of energy I almost can’t keep up with it. I still struggle to find the right words to express what I see and feel in my head. English is my second language but I am fluent and the amount I read has given me quite an extensive vocabulary. I think I would struggle with the same problem if I was writing in Portuguese so I think the issue comes down to practice. I’m also quite ocd when I write and I can’t carry on if I spot grammatical errors or misspelled words.
As I’m writing my book I’m also learning about my own process and I keep thinking about better and more effective ways to do it. This isn’t helpful when I’m on a deadline and I am aware of that. I think I just have to go with the flow and write, write, write until I have the bones of the story. Easier said than done. I still have this weekend to do some more writing before real life happens and I have to return to work. Next week is going to be a busy week with a lot of traveling and some planning for a holiday in a couple of weeks. I promise to do a separate post about my holiday as it is coincidentally related to book.
So did I achieve what I wanted out of this time off? Well, not really but I’m not going to give myself a hard time over it. I probably had planned to do much more than it was realistic anyway so feeling bad over it will take away my enjoyment of a week off work.
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